I hate to be wrong. I am
very quick to challenge any implication that I am wrong. I will research
diligently to prove my point. I learned that this behavior is one aspect of my Control
Temperament: Choleric. Choleric people tend to be right. That’s one reason some
people do not like them. People grow weary a know-it-all.
This is relatively new
information for me. My wife, Martha, is a certified pastoral counselor, with a
degree to prove it! She has tried to help me over the years to understand that,
just because I know the answer, not everyone wants to hear it. I am just the
opposite. If someone knows the answer to my question I want to hear it. I love
to learn. I love discovery, but I also love shared knowledge.
I mentioned a little about
me to give you some background for this post. I have recently had an epiphany.
It has not come easily, but I’m glad that I learned it now, at 54, rather than
finding out at 75. I have come to realize that I don’t know everything.
Specifically, I don’t even know as much as I thought I knew about my God, and
His Kingdom.
I’ve been on a journey for
at least 3 years of looking at everything I believe with new eyes. My friend,
Ed Chinn, has just published a book called “New Eyes for a New World.” I
recommend it. It will help you think in new ways. Another book that I read
recently is by Matthew B. Redmond, called “The God of the Mundane”, another
that I highly recommend. These, along with several others, have challenged me
to look at everything a second time. Go back and find out WHY you believe what
you do, not just debunk everything that is not in agreement with WHAT you
believe.
The latest milestone on this
journey came yesterday. After reading a recommended blog entry by Rachel Held
Evans (rachelheldevans.com/blog) I replied with this:
“Interesting times
in the Body right now. I'm beginning to feel like a man without a ‘country’.
I'm beginning to get a glimpse of what the Lord was saying to the angel
at Laodicea. I have numbered myself with them, but I'm trying to break
free.”
After writing that in a rather off-the-cuff manner, mainly because I
liked the self-righteous sound of it, I started looking deeper into Laodicea. I
found something interesting, and convicting.
When you look at the Greek, in which I am not a scholar, I found
that 2 words were used to form Laodicea. The first is laos which simply means “people.” The second word is dike (pronounced dee’-kay) which means
“right, or just.”
One could draw from this definition that the people there were
self-righteous. They justified their position, behavior, or beliefs concerning
spiritual matters. The Lord spoke to them and said, "Because you say, 'I am
rich, have become wealthy, and have need of nothing'; and do not know that you
are wretched, miserable, poor, blind, and naked; I counsel you to buy from Me
gold refined in the fire, that you may be rich; and white garments, that you
may be clothed, that the shame of your nakedness may not be revealed; and
anoint your eyes with eye salve, that you may see.” (Revelation 4:17-18 NKJV)
One of the greatest problems with deception is the fact that you are
deceived. You cannot see the deception because you believe you are right. It
has taken 3 years, and counting, but I believe the walls of my stubbornness are
beginning to crack, allowing the amazing light of God’s glory and truth to
invade my world in ways I have not experienced in a long time.
Just so you know, I’m not talking about “sin”, necessarily. I never
have walked away from the Lord, or pursued other gods. I have simply allowed
the light (little “l”) of my wisdom and knowledge to be enough for me, instead
of letting the Light (big “l”) show me how to live my life.
I’m not speaking as one that has arrived, simply as one who is in
pursuit of the One whom I love, and that loves me.
One final thought about Laodicea. According to scripture there was
an epistle written by Paul to the Laodiceans. He mentions it in Colossians 4:16:
“And when this epistle is read among you, cause that it be read also in the
church of the Laodiceans; and that ye likewise read the epistle from Laodicea.”
Wouldn’t you love to have read what Paul wrote to these folks? I
know I sure would.